Guilty Pleasure

As I get older it sickens me how much more aware of myself I am. Yet, I am in constant denial and always lying! That being said, I asked myself recently- "what is my guilty pleasure?" And you know what came to mind? NOTHING! Know why? Because in all honesty I don't have just one. Food, in general, is the tip of the iceberg. Break it down? Chocolate (especially with nuts), fried foods (fried chicken, french fries, etc), ice cream, McDonald's, Doritos....need I go on? It's all bad for you. And that brings me to my next point, you can't have a healthy guilty pleasure. Who can feel guilty about being good? The healthiest person I know has a double guilty spot for wine and chicken wings, but she is over 50 and goddamn fabulous. The ambiguity of guilty pleasure drives me absolutely barking mad! It goes right up there with the mixed messages of carpe diem and be responsible that seems to ring out of every Baby Boomers mouth when talking to myself and my fellow Gen Milennials. No wonder we're all a disaster- we don't know which way to go. A common thread in my mind: "Man, I am so hungry, but there is only junk to eat. It's better to eat junk than not eat at all. But if you eat this sack of fries you're going to kick yourself later. If I die today, right now at least I died eating fries! But if I live to see tomorrow I have to look at my thighs. If I don't eat the fries I'll be grouchy because I want it, but think of the long term benefits. Then again, not eating this sack of fries won't make a difference, I am already too far gone. Oh well, eat them now and start over tomorrow."

I usually eat whatever, by myself and hide the evidence. So what am I a foodaholic? If I eat whatever, by myself and hide the evidence- it's like I think it doesn't count. So if a tree falls and no one is around- does it still make a noise? DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I ate

Sausage Egg McMuffin (I planned to eat at home, but someone decided to run the oven cleaner this morning and almost scorched my retinas), hash brown, small sprite

1 piece of pork loin, lightly buttered elbow noodles

1 snack bag of doritos

1 rice krispies treat

1 piece of steak, corn

1 can sunkistsoda

a ton of water

and 18 hershey's kisses w/ almonds....and counting